I keep meaning to write more, but things always seem to get overwhelming and busy. I finished out the semester with all nearly perfect A's, started my new job, left my old jobs, and things have started progressing with Mike.
The new job has been quite the experience thus far. It's a totally new environment with new people and a new duties I've never done before. Luckily, the people I work with are very nice and have been helping and encouraging me along the way. I work in a classroom at a special education school helping to implement behavioral/treatment plans on adolescent kids. I only have four in our classroom but it's been very challenging at times. There's a 1:1 ratio of staff to kids in that class, but sometimes the kids get violent or aggressive or oppositional in various ways. I enjoy not sitting behind a desk all day and being able to talk to the students and work with them, but it is exhausting. I'm up every morning at 6:45am, which is crazy to me since I'm not a morning person in the slightest. The teacher I'm working with is very nice and down to earth, and so is my supervisor helping me with my state licensure hours. I'm also not completely minding wearing a dress every day. I bought a few casual dresses and wear a sweater over it to keep warm, and then also wear a doctor's coat around the school. I'm always walking around with at least one dry erase marker, a pencil, some folded paper towels, and usually a timer. I feel very official in my get-up.
I also left my old jobs. Saying goodbye was difficult at my office job because I really did establish a few friendships there, but Vince and I vowed to stay in contact and talk like we usually do. We talk almost daily still and I refuse to let that friendship go. However, leaving the research labs was a great feeling. I no longer have to work on my Saturdays and feel like I have more breathing room. It was sad to leave somewhere I had been for 2 1/2 years, but it was time to move on.
Next up, Mike. It's been an interesting journey with him. We had a lot of passive flirting and small physical things that showed we were into each other, but it didn't actually come to a head until last week. We were over at his place and had just played some video games together. We decided to chill on his couch and watch some Kitchen Nightmares (Gordon Ramsay is one of our favorite people). I gradually moved closer to him and he put his arm around me and my feet were propped on his. Then we started to play fight over something dumb and he ended up pinning me on the couch. From there I decided to just take a leap of faith, so I grabbed him closer and kissed him. We ended up making out for a little while and eventually I was straddling him on the couch, but his mom pulled up outside so we stopped. We spoke about it after leaving his house for a coffee and I told him how I felt about him and that I had a crush. He said he's too busy for a formal relationship right now but wants to see what happens. We both have busy schedules, so he isn't wrong. But I feel like he's also just nervous about being in a serious relationship after going a long time without having one. We've both been effectively single for years, so starting a real relationship is a little intimidating. However, we decided to just let it be and see what happens. Ever since I confessed my feelings and we talked about our relationship, he's been much more responsive to texts during the day and we play video games together almost every night. We've had Discord calls that lasted until 4am because we didn't want to stop talking. Friday after I got off work he was free to hang out for a bit. He picked me up and we got coffee then headed to his mom's new house where he had to do some odds and ends things. I kept him company and helped where I could. He showed me around and the house looks great. It should only be a few finishing touches until she's able to move in fully, then Mike will have his place to himself. We decided to go quick furniture shopping after the pit stop at the house because he wants a new couch after his mom leaves. It felt like we were furniture shopping together like a couple. We sat/laid on/felt every couch on the gallery floor. Eventually we found one we both liked that met his requirements. We ended up sitting on the couch together talking a bit about life and general stuff, and I propped my leg on his. He put his hand over my thigh and it just felt so right. Eventually we left and he took the specs of the couch to make sure it would fit his living room. We got food, did a little exploring at Home Goods, then went to a vape store to poke around. Neither of us bought anything and we ended up talking in the car for a bit having a Star Trek vs. Star Wars debate. Eventually, he grabbed me and we started making out. There was some hair pulling and nibbling, and it was definitely getting heated. He pulled the car onto a quiet side street and we continued kissing. At one point, I tasted blood but figured one of us bit a little too hard and someone was just bleeding a bit. He was feeling my body and pulling my hair, and I knew we were about to hook up for real. I would prefer our first time be in a bed but sometimes things just happen. We pull away for a brief minute and I wipe my mouth because it feels very wet. I look down and my hand is covered in blood. Turns out, Mike got a nose bleed while we were making out and neither of us had a clue. We both died laughing and thought it was hilarious. By the time we cleaned ourselves/each other up (since both of our faces were covered in blood) the mood had passed and it was getting late so I had to head home. We talked and laughed about it all the way home. He said it was embarrassing, but I find it to be very funny timing. I kissed him goodbye before getting out of the car and we had a small make out session again. He was pulling my hair and we were getting into it again, but I knew my parents were still awake waiting for me to get home (it was around 11:30pm at this point), so I pulled away and told him I had to go before my parents killed the both of us. It sucked having to leave, but I hope to see him again soon. We're trying to aim for once a week for an in-person hang out and since this weekend is a long weekend maybe I'll see him Monday. All I know is that it's very heavy when we kiss. I'm looking forward to seeing him next. I want to kiss him more and see where it all goes. I know we're going to hook up, it's just a matter of when and where at this point. Once his mom moves out in the next few weeks I fully intend on going over at least once a week to hang out. Besides being physically attracted to him, I'm also very attracted to his personality. He's goofy, smart, dorky, and is a hustler like I am. He's always working and doing something, and that's a quality I love in a partner. I need someone motivated and willing to work. He's just an overall great person and I could definitely see myself dating him seriously if that opportunity were to arise. I didn't mean to ramble about him, but clearly I'm crushing pretty hard here.
Here is the oh-so-loved music drop. Hopefully your 2021 is going well. If not, listen to some music and chill for a bit. Take a little while to put on your headphones, block your life out, and listen to some good music. Believe me, it helps.
