Joe

I went to Joe's house. What did he want to talk about? He wanted to apologize to me. He said he was sorry for cutting communication off between us. I wasn't expecting that. At all. I've never really heard him apologize so sincere before. It was nice. I accepted his apology and we hugged. He smelled so good. Like a fresh shower smell mixed with some cologne. Memories came flooding back about how he and I fucked around a while ago. Those were fun times, but I can't continue that type of relationship now. I have Bambi. Joe pushed himself onto me a bit and said he has "an insatiable lust" for me. He even hinted at wanting to be my boyfriend. The way we were talking was so open and free, and it was like old times. After debating whether sex was an option, I had to leave. He and I walked together to the bus stop talking about shrooms and other hallucinogens. I want to try some of them. Joe says you get much more spiritual while on them. I wouldn't mind taking a look at my inner self and getting some answers. Maybe I'll try it. But that was my day yesterday. It went well. I got resolution.
Now, I'm on my way to school. We have a photography session today with the club. I'm excited. Today will go fast. Then tomorrow. Then ComicCon. I like it.

Let's Meet Up

I couldn't make it to Bambi's house on Monday. I felt bad. But I went the next day on Tuesday (yesterday). I couldn't stop thinking about him in class and wanted the time to go faster. I wanted to see him again. To hug and comfort him. After class, I ran to the bus and got on my way. When I arrived, Bambi was alone. We hugged and held eachother close. He put a frozen pizza in the oven when I said I was hungry. Of course the Italian guy made me pizza. What else would he make? It tasted good. We ate together talking and laughing. He seems happier. I love it. Soon his parents came home and we worked on his math assignments. I helped out the best I could. His parents then gave me a ride home. It was so nice. I miss him. This is the old Bambi. Sweet, funny, and happy.
Today I had my first psychology test. I got an 82. Not bad for my first exam. The rest of the day was long and annoying. Now I'm going to Joe's house. He said he wants to talk to me. I'm not sure what about, but I'm nervous. I still have about an hour till I get there. I'm going to be miserable till we talk. I wonder what he has in store...

Looking Up

These last few days have been crazy. I worked the early shift Saturday and Sunday. It was exhausting, but surprisingly fun. Saturday it was only Bob and I. LD wasn't in because his wife just gave birth to their first child, a daughter. She's so adorable. But Bob and I were alone. I was worried but we started talking and laughing and getting along. I never thought he would be so nice to me. Saturday got busy though. For 3hrs straight, there was a line out the door. It was hectic, but he and I managed to take care of the whole crowd 2 or 3 customers at a time. After the rush ended, he looked at me and said "it was a pleasure working with you today". Wow. I was in shock. He didn't just tolerate me, but he complimented me too. The rest of the day went slow but it was fun once Jena and Ray came. We all talked and then I left. I went home exhausted. However, my mom needed me to do work for her. We're renovating our kitchen and demo starts Friday. So we started taking the pots and plates and trays downstairs and put of the way. I did 2/3 of it then stopped. I was tired. I had been going since 5:30am and my neck/shoulder was killing me. I really needed those anti-inflammatory drugs I guess. I'm out of those and so I'm on an ibuprofen dose and lidocaine patches every day to keep it under control. I don't know why this hasn't healed yet. But anyway, I needed a break from the moving and cleaning. My mom got all pissed out and said I don't contribute to the household. Ok. Whatever helps her sleep at night.
The next morning I started work at 7. Bob and Matt were there. I haven't known Matt for long, but he's fun to work with. We all got along and the morning went well. I talked to Jeff (the Boss Man) about taking next weekend off. It's ComicCon! He agreed and I was thrilled. I still am thrilled. Just as I was leaving work, Bert came and talked to me. He asked what was up and how I was doing. Weird. He was probably on drugs. He usually says passing comments, but he and I never get into an actual conversation. He even told me to enjoy my week and wished me well. Weird. I went home and watched a Lifetime movie. They're actually pretty good. Over the weekend alone, I watched three 2hr Lifetime movies. I then showered and slept. I feel like the next couple weeks will be great. ComicCon is this weekend, and going to college isn't too hard right now. I just wanna hang out and enjoy life. I hope that's what the next 2 weeks are for.
Now for a Bambi update. He went to work yesterday and broke down crying. He left work, went home, and showed his mom his collection of knives. Then he showed her his scars. She is getting help for him. Finally. In a way, I'm glad this happened. He needs help and now is the time to get it. I'm visiting him today after classes and helping him with his math work. I'm doing everything I can for him. I want the old Bambi back. The one who was always happy and making jokes. I want him back. I want my Bambino back.

No Plans

The last few days have gone smoothly. I was exhausted yesterday, but oh well. I managed. I went home, and spent 4hrs doing 2 assignments. The internet is so distracting sometimes. College can be overwhelming too. In my writing class, we're writing an essay, research paper, and weekly journals all at once. Ugh. But then other classes have next to no work. My psychology class has had no homework so far. We have a test coming up on Monday I think, but that's it. My math class has homework, but it's not required. My music class has no homework either; only tests. So I mainly focus on my writing class and studying for upcoming tests.
Today I was late for my psychology class. The train was heavily delayed and I was stuck on a motionless train for a half hour. Sometimes I hate the MTA. I got a few papers back in my writing class though. I got an A- on my first college paper. Not bad. Right? I was so thrilled. I showed my mom and she asked why I got a minus. She's so encouraging isn't she? However, she read it later on and said it was decent. It's now hanging on my fridge with pride. Elijah didn't come to school today, so I had nothing to do after class. Bambi was working so he couldn't meet me for lunch. I didn't want to see Leo today. I don't know why, but for some reason, I didn't want to meet up with him. I'm not avoiding him or anything. I just didn't feel like it. Since I had no plans, I went right home. I took the train and then the bus. The bus broke down and my mom offered to come pick me up. Thank god. I went home and did nothing. It's nice to be lazy sometimes. I have work tomorrow. 6-12. Whoo. It shouldn't be too bad. Bob will be there, but he likes me now. I just hope everything continues to be smooth. I don't need to be lectured and yelled at that early in the morning. Cross your fingers and wish me luck.

Day of the Living Dead

I don't know why, but yesterday was exhausting. Kyle, Elijah and I filmed a short video about condoms. I took condoms from the office at my college and threw them at Elijah as part of video. I now have about 30 condoms in my bag along with some packets of lube. It was quite the adventure yesterday. I was exhausted coming to school and getting through my classes was a miracle. I thought I aced my math test. I got a C-, which is a blow to my self esteem. This was simple math and I couldn't even do that. I got three problems wrong because I forgot to subtract one. ONE. Ugh. Oh well. I'll do better next time, right?
After classes is when the filming began. We walked to a local pier and shot the video there. It was rather fun. We filmed for about an hour and a half just to get 2mins of video. But then again, we stopped for ice cream and explored the area a bit. Then we went to Panera Bread where we sat and edited the video for another hour. It was perfect. We thought it had saved, but it didn't. So we were screwed. Elijah had to take the video files home with him and edit it again. I felt bad. We worked so hard for naut. We gave up and left to go home. I got home tired as hell. But wait! There's more. I had work to do. Of course. So I sat and did homework till 1am then showered and passed out. I woke up this morning exhausted. My dad offered me a ride. If I knew he could drive me, I would have been able to sleep for an extra hour. But nope. I got up at 8:30 and he drove me. I was falling asleep on the train listening to Pendulum. Meh. Now I'm at school an hour early. I want to nap. I have 3 classes back to back today. I don't know if I'm going to make it.

Legs, Neck, Stomach

Today I had school. Only one class. Elijah and I explored the neighborhood a bit and found a nice area by the water with a great view. I took tons of pictures. Elijah and I then walked back to school because he had another class. The walk left us both tired with somewhat achy legs (at least on my part). While he was in class, I slept in the library. It was a nice nap. After that, we headed home together per usual.
I had a doctors appointment today so I rushed home for that. It was a follow up appointment about my neck. The doctor ordered an MRI for my neck/shoulder region. Meh. I assume it'll be some time next week. After my appointment, I came home and did nothing productive. I showered around midnight and was just heading off to bed when I heard weird noises from down the hall. I looked and found Erik throwing up in the corner of his room. I got my mother and we handled the situation. I just love cleaning vomit at 1am, don't you? Tomorrow I have my long math class and music class. Then, Elijah, Kyle and I are shooting a video about condoms for a health science class that Elijah is taking. It'll certainly be fun. Now, let me try to sleep with the smell of vomit still lingering in the air.