I've been feeling very free lately. The last week especially. I've seen my friends and had an amazing time, not feeling the slightest of worry or pressure. Last Saturday was Warped Tour. Andrea, Daniel, Josh, and I spent the entire day together. I picked Daniel and Andrea up in the morning and spent the ride out to the venue laughing and talking and bullshitting. We ended up getting there late, but no one minded too much. We saw a bunch of different bands, bought over priced food, and of course got some merch. There was one moment in particular that stuck with me though. My mom has told me before that if I ever get severely injured, think of a specific moment in time and put yourself there. Remember the smell and feeling and sound and the little details. We were all up on a raised platform above the crowds to see a band perform. We were all watching and enjoying the atmosphere. It was that moment that I decided I would remember. I took note of the sun on my face, the gentle breeze through my hair, the slight tug on my right ear from an earring blowing in the wind, my chest pounding with the deep vibrations of music, the distinct smell of marijuana in the distance, and the freedom my soul felt. I closed my eyes and just focused on the moment. I had my friends and boyfriend around me. I was happy. We eventually moved on and left later in the day. We all stopped by Wendy's for some fast food and ate in the car. We dropped everyone at home, then headed home ourselves. Due to plans with my family the next day, I couldn't stay the night. By the time I got home it was around 1am, and I was exhausted.
On Wednesday, I saw Gurmeet. He got an internship, so we will no longer be coworkers. However, we vowed to keep in touch no matter what. He's that typical gay best friend that you check out guys on tinder with and gossip about mutual friends. We saw a movie together, then went out for an early dinner. He and I ended up at a 5Below right next to where we work, and got matching key covers to symbolize our friendship. It's stupid and silly and doesn't make much sense, but it made us happy. Losing him at work is going to be difficult. We would always mock each other and compete for the highest ranking in the store for company credit cards. Seeing him on the schedule when I got to work made me happier and more excited to work. I hope he comes back, but at the same time I'm happy he found something better for himself. I know one day I'll be leaving too, but I genuinely love my job and most of the people I work with. I'm a senior cashier and top performer for the store. I like being a big fish in a little pond, but it'll be different without my partner in crime.
Saturday, July 15, 2017
Beartooth
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