Better Now

I'm trying to keep updated on here from now on. Getting my thoughts and feelings out in the open feels good. It's different than therapy, and I rather enjoy it.
I've been very unsettled lately. Not in any particular mood, just a general feeling of being a bit unstable. I've been enjoying Seth's company a lot this week. We spent about 10hrs together on Monday, then another 8hrs Tuesday. Yesterday I wasn't feeling mentally up to having sex or doing much. There's a room that he and I for our encounters where no one goes. It's maybe around 15x15ft with 3 windows and working outlets to charge electronics. We've watched movies there, had plenty of sex, and yesterday we just hung out. He knew I wasn't mentally ok, so we just talked and enjoyed each other's company. We sat on the floor for about an hour and talked about nonsense. He made me smile and laugh, and I felt a little better. I became more at ease and we had ending up having sex anyway. Seth respects my boundaries and wishes, no matter how badly he wants to fuck me.
I've been keeping Josh in the loop with this stuff if he asks, and he thinks I'm forming the beginnings of a relationship with Seth. What Seth and I have is definitely different than anything I'm used to or have seen in the past. I forget whether I mentioned this in my last post, and I'm too lazy to look - but there's another girl in the picture. She usually gets him for entire weekends, while I have him daily during the week. Having another girl doesn't bother me. If anything it's a reassurance that I'm not slipping into my old ways. While Seth and I do love each other and care deeply for one another, neither of us wants nor needs a relationship. We're content with what we have. The only issue arising as of late would be that I'm beginning to feel jealous. The other girl gets him for 4 days in a row sometimes, and I only get him for 1-2hrs at a time. While it is nice seeing him every day at school, I wish he and I had more extended quality time. Monday and Tuesday were exceptions to the norm, obviously. Next week he and I have off for a Jewish holiday, so we're planning a night at a hotel in the city. He said he wants to take me someplace nice and treat me how I deserve to be treated. I'm very much looking forward to it. Having more than about 3hrs together is incredible for me, and he feels the same. He understands my jealousy and is trying to balance the system. What makes me feel better and helps with coping with the jealousy is knowing that he'd choose me over her. He's told me several times that he sees her more as a friend he fucks, and he doesn't love her at all or find her as attractive. He still likes her, but not nearly on the same level that he likes me. I'm aware that he could just be playing me and feeding me what I want to hear, but I doubt he would. I have small files of information on both the other girl and his ex. I could do damage to him and those he cares about. Knowing I have some power makes me more comfortable. Anyway, I know he loves me and I know I love him. I have no idea where this is leading either of us, but I'm enjoying the ride as we go. There's nothing you can do other than taking it one day at a time.