The last few days have been amazing. I've been working with the head of the graduate department on getting me registered for my first graduate classes. It's starting to sink in a little more that I'm not just daydreaming about getting in or saying things like "When I get into grad school...". I saw Seth on Saturday and it was great. We kept our distance in accordance with the CDC and all that jazz, but it was nice just to see him. We walked around his local park for a bit and it was nice. He lives in a "rich"-er area than most so his neighborhood isn't crowded and the park is always perfect. After getting tired of walking we headed back to his house where we sat in his nice backyard talking. A close family friend of his ended up dropping by and we all sat in the yard talking. She's like his second mother and is incredibly smart. She's a doctor who teaches medicine for a prestigious school and has her own research lab conducting every kind of study you can imagine. When Seth brought up the fact that I got into graduate school she was very happy for me. It was an odd experience discussing graduate school in such a way that was actually tangible instead of just a thought or wishful thinking. We decided that I needed to come over and visit more often, so I'll hopefully do just that.
The next day I had an impromptu meeting with Leo. I hadn't seen him since September so we decided to meet at a park by his house. We walked around for about an hour and a half but got sick of the crowds. He had bought a car just a matter of weeks ago so he showed me the car and we decided to go for a ride. I know the rule is 6ft with masks on, but we put the windows down and took our masks off. We talked and laughed and poked fun at each other like we always do. He's one of those people where even though you don't see them for months at a time you can pick up right where you left off as if nothing happened. We talked a lot about his new job. He's an engineer so he decided that the regular 9-to-5 wasn't for him. He works on a rig over the border in a different state. He seems to love it and genuinely enjoy it. He's also taken up work as volunteer EMS. He's had training in many areas throughout his life so it doesn't surprise me that he wants to implement that training when it's needed. He's in the middle of completing all of his certifications but he's actively working shifts on his ambulance. It worries me that he's out there potentially being exposed to lord knows what, but it's fulfilling for him and seems to make him happy. I know it probably wasn't the smartest decision to ride in a car with him without wearing a mask, but I just needed to feel normal for a bit. Just cruising around feeling the sun on my face and breeze through my hair while laughing and letting go for a little while. We decided that we should try to make more time for each other because we miss kicking around together. We were only together for about 4 hours, but it was a great 4 hours.
Being with Leo also brought some feelings to the surface. As we were talking about our jobs and lives in general it hit me that we're adults, which is horrifying. We have cars, work full time jobs, and get annoyed at the sight of high school kids. He holds the title of an EMS first responder as well as an engineer on a large vessel. I have the title of an analytics consultant along with being a research assistant at a developmental neuropsychology lab as well as a biologically based psychosocial lab at a hospital. Anyone hearing those job titles would think we were adults. In the grand scheme of things I suppose I am an adult, but I definitely don't feel like it. I'm just now learning how to make spaghetti and meatballs. I ordered a harness for my cat so I could walk her outside like a dog. I sleep with stuffed animals every night. I thoroughly enjoy anime conventions. I keep a small stock pile of candy in my car. So much about me is questionable in the sense of being an adult. I'm turning 25 next year and that's going to be a rude awakening.
I think I'm going to continue to throw some music at the end of my posts - most likely only 5 at a time to really digest all of them. I feel like it's a good way to maybe introduce you to something/someone you've never heard before. Maybe it'll inspire you or motivate you to do something. I've always found music to be powerful, and hopefully you do too. As always, I'll recommend headphones and/or a quiet place to truly focus on the music.
Suzanne
Father Ocean
All Love
Show Me Love
Ashes of Eden
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