Where do I even start? I've tried writing posts twice before this one but never got around to editing and publishing them. Maybe I'll do a retroactive post or something after this. I just feel like I need to pop in again and provide a bit of an update. A lot has happened since my last post almost 7 months ago now.
My health has ultimately been better. I ended up catching COVID again for the second time, but this time everyone close to me also got infected. My parents, my brother, me, and Michael all got it the week of Valentine's Day. Michael and I have joked that COVID was my oh-so-loving gift to him. For the duration of the week and a half we were all out of commission, I spent time bouncing back and forth between my own home and Michael's house to check on him. He has some past respiratory issues that became a concern again when he got COVID, so I wanted to drop in as often as I could to keep him company and make sure he was alright. My brother and my dad had it the easiest, followed by me, followed by my mom and Michael. At one point Michael made me laugh and I ended up wheezing to the point of needing an inhaler. He gave me an inhaler to hold on to just in case something like that happened again, but luckily I've been alright since then. Everyone has since made a full recovery. Funny enough, my previous COVID headaches seem to have been halted by the second round of COVID, so that's a silver lining. Another health issue I've been facing is a back injury I sustained at work. I ended up taking a hit to the chest and falling backwards. I've seen my doctor a couple times a week for treatments and he suggested I go out on Worker's Comp for a few weeks. He determined it appears to be an issue with a disk in my back which is also contributing to some sciatica. My last day of work was Friday so now I have some time to recuperate a little. It feels good knowing I have some time off work, but I also feel guilty. I know my coworkers are going to be screwed until I get back, but at this point I have to take care of myself first. They've all told me not to feel guilty and that my health comes first, but it's hard to think that way when I care so much about my coworkers and what they go through. Either way, I have some time off to hopefully get better while accomplishing some stuff I want to do at home. I'm limited in what I can do for now, but I can still be somewhat productive while out of work. Another side note on my health is that I officially got an ADHD diagnosis. It explains a lot of my forgetfulness and inability to really finish tasks when I start them.
Another big thing to touch on is my relationship with Michael. We went on a road trip together down south to visit friends of mine a few months back and we had a great time. Spending a week straight together really put us to the test in the sense of seeing if we could tolerate each other long term. Really his only complaint was me taking up too much of the bed, but that isn't anything new. On our trip we did a lot of fun stuff and spent quality time together. We went to a golf range and he taught me how to swing, we visited a very nice knife store and spent way too much money, we tried new food (and paid the price), and on the way back home we ended up staying a night at his grandmother's vacation home in the Poconos. We ended up having to shovel snow at 5am when we got there just to pull the car in to the driveway since no one had been there for a while, and that was after a very full day/night of driving. Anyway, on the trip we decided to make our relationship a real thing, and so we're officially a couple now. We've been officially together for almost four months now and I'm happy. We've had very small bickerings about communication, but besides that it's been great. I see him a couple times a week, we throw on a movie or a show, get/make food, and spend a few hours just hanging out and talking. He isn't an overly affectionate person, but I know he cares. He does little things that he knows make me happy, and that's really all I want. I've been thinking about this exact scenario for years at this point. I've had a crush on Michael really ever since I met him. Every time I look at him I'm reminded how lucky I am to have finally gotten what I wanted. From when he kissed me for the very first time years ago under the tree outside his house, to now where I get to feel him pull me close when we sleep together at night. I feel secure and confident in what I have with him, and that makes me happy. Michael just met a couple work friends of mine last night when we all went to a concert together. I was somewhat nervous about joining my two worlds since he had never met any of my friends before, but it went very well. One of my friends told me I was very "girly" around Michael, which surprised me. I didn't think I was different around him, but the comment made me stop to think. I do feel softer when I'm with him. Michael is a bigger manly kind of guy so I guess that makes me feel like I can be more vulnerable and soft when I'm around him. I feel protected and safe, and I love that about him.
School is almost over, which I'm beyond happy about. I have two finals left for this semester, then I have one more class in the fall before I graduate. Once I graduate I'll officially have a Master's Degree, and that's something I've dreamt of for a while. My ultimate goal is a PhD, but I don't see that in the immediate future. My future beyond school is still something I find uncertain to a degree, but I'll figure it out as time goes along.
I think that's pretty much it for the basics of my life right now. I feel like I haven't written in forever, and it's true. I kept saying I'd keep it updated and keep myself writing, but things always get in the way. I would like to take more time to keep this updated, and hopefully with things settling down a bit soon I should be able to get back to maintaining this again. Patience is a virtue. This blog has not yet died, and will not die in the foreseeable future. Keep tuning in to catch up on my wonderfully chaotic and confusingly compelling life. Now come enjoy some music. Surely by now you've all caught up on the music I've dropped thus far. Put on those headphones and catch a vibe.
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