Freak on a Leash

After I blogged my last entry, I got out of bed (finally). I made myself an omlette that actually looked kinda good. It had cheddar cheese inside with a hint of garlic salt that I mixed into the eggs. It was great. While eating, I skyped Bambi. We talked and laughed and discussed some stuff. He said he's gonna come with me tomorrow to our old high school. They have an annual children's play, and tomorrow is the only home show. I had totally forgotten about it until last night. Bambi and I are gonna meet up for dinner then head to the show. It should be good considering the good cast. In the back of my mind, I thought of Leo. Would he be there? Am I going to see him? What is Bambi gonna do if he's there? All of these questions will be answered by tomorrow night. Anyway, the Skype call ended, and I had to get ready to go.
Before I left to meet the Kappas, I wanted to vacuum. I got a little caught up in a tv show about a murder case, so I was running late. I ran around my house vacuuming as fast as I could. I got my stuff together and left. I got to school a little late, but they didn't mind. They were all hanging out in the cafe. Jen and 2 of the Alpha girls were talking. The Alphas were the first group to enter the Kappas. Jen and I will be the Kappa class, and before us were the Iotas. I'm already starting to know some of the Greek alphabet. But I joined Jen and the Alphas. One of the Alphas is like the big mommy. She's the one who texts me about meetings, and tries to include me in a majority of the conversations. Her name is Sky. She's really nice to me, and insists on including me in everything. We all talked and eventually left for ice cream. We spent about 30mins all crowded into a small Hagen Daaz ordering ice cream. I got a caramel cone shake. It was pretty damn good. We all walked back to school to finish our treats. We got there and talked and laughed. I found myself becoming more open to talking and contributing to conversations. It was nice. While we were in the cafe, I saw Jess. I hadn't seen her in a long while, so I stopped to talk. She said that with all the sorority girls surrounding me, I looked like someone from Mean Girls. I like that movie, so I can't say I didn't like the idea. She and I talked and I realized how much I missed her weird antics. She invited me to have lunch with her and some guy tomorrow. I agreed, but only because she says he's hot. I wanna see who she's talking about, and maybe try to hook them up by suggesting a lunch date. Who knows? Anyway, I got back to the Kappas, and continued enjoying myself.
I checked the time and almost died. I was supposed to meet my mom somewhere at 8, and it was now 7:25. Fuck. I grabbed my coat, said goodbyes, and ran. I caught the train just as it pulled into the station. 50mins later, I meet my mom. Needless to say, she was pissed off. My parents have weekly therapy sessions, and she hates missing them. At least she gets therapy. I've asked for it, and what have I gotten? Nothing. She was pissed off because she couldn't keep her appointment. I felt bad, but at the same time I was confused. They couldn't go to their meeting without me being home. Why? Oh yea, because Erik can't fucking take care of himself. You have to actually tell him to shower and brush his teeth, or he won't do it. So they needed me home to watch him. I have to sacrifice parts of my life, so they can be happy. I feel like I'm still on a leash. I'm in college for fuck sake. Erik is 11, he needs to learn how to take care of himself without someone telling him what to do. Even while blogging, my mom told me to feed the cats and empty the dishwasher. Really? Can no one else do this stuff? I'm trying to go out a little more and enjoy some freedom. I want to be able to have fun without being bitched at about it. In the end, my parents still have me on their leash and pull me back whenever they find it convenient. I'm not 15 anymore. I'm 18, in college, and need some separation.