Strangely Human

Today started off on a shakey note. I learned that JP was going to be hanging out with a female friend after work. It really annoyed me. We bickered, and I gave up trying to invite him over. I barely got my text out when the bell rang. I knew instantly who it was. JP hugged me and followed me to my room. We talked about the fight my mom and I had last night, and I felt a bit better. Just sitting next to him on my bed eases my nerves. We started getting frisky, and before long, we were intertwined and making love. I love how he feels inside me. We went from soft and gentle, to fast and rough. It was exactly what I described as my fantasy only a few days ago. As I cleaned myself up, he laid on my bed and told me how much I wear him out. It makes me feel so happy that I can satisfy him. We got redressed and he made me eat some food before he left. It really makes me smile knowing he cares. Before he left for work, he told me he wasn't going to see his female friend after work because it made me uncomfortable, and he respects that. Again, it made me feel amazing. I feel so lucky to have him by my side. We aren't back to being 100% on track, but we're certainly getting there. In the back of my mind, I wonder if he got intimate with his wife while we were fighting a few days ago. I wanted to ask, but I didn't want to know. I'm focusing on he and I for now, as well as a possible new addition.
After much prompting from JP, I tried to be more open with my mom. I asked her if she loved me, and she came back without a second though assuring me she loves me more than anything on this planet. It made me feel comforted to hear her say that. As I got into detail of how I felt and why, I found myself on the verge of tears. I couldn't cry. I managed to get my point across, and we ended on a somewhat good note. I've never really seen my mom be so human before. She's usually so cold and guarded. She doesn't let me in, or anyone else it seems. Even just after that short 15min conversation, I feel a bit closer to her. I don't really know why or how to explain it, but I do. It isn't significant, but if this kind of talking happens more often, I think our relationship will improve. Once again, I have JP to thank for yet another improvement of my life. What more could a girl ask for?