All My Friends

Josh and I were able to score one last sleep over for the summer. I made plans with my friends so all of them could meet Josh and we could spend time together. My day started with a psychological interview for the DEP Police position. It was emotionally exhausting. There were far too many questions and inquiries. By the time I left, it was 2hrs later. I was exhausted but I rushed to NJ. I got to Josh, then we headed out. My friends, Josh, and I went to the beach. We watched the sun go down and saw how pretty the bright moon looked in the pastels. We gathered back to the car at the sight of lightning. It was beautiful to watch while I drove. We stopped for food and everyone finally got a chance to just sit down and talk. Everyone was getting along amazingly. I couldn't have asked for anything better. We left and I dropped everyone back to their respective houses.  Josh loves my friends and my friends love him.
Josh and I stopped for coffee on the way home and on the way into the drive thru, I hit the curb. I ended up losing part of the side of his car. The sliding door still works so it's purely cosmetic. I was just in pieces over it, and Josh could tell. He tried to calm my nerves and make me feel better. Eventually I was able to relax. We took advantage of his bed, then went to sleep. We cuddled all through the night and once again I loved feeling him so close. His alarm for school went off early in the morning and he told me he would call out so we could stay in bed together for longer. It was just he and I home. His parents are away on vacation so we had the house to ourselves. We slept in, I showered, and we saw a movie. We went to the mechanic to see how bad the car was. He didn't give anything by way of a price, and that makes me nervous. I'm so worried it'll be something outrageous. After that, we went to lunch/dinner. Just looking at him eating makes me smile. I tease him a lot, but I also love him a lot. It feels so perfect when we kiss. I eventually had to leave to come home, and it broke my heart. As soon as I got into the cab and watched as we pulled away, I got teary eyed. Something about this sleep over felt different. He and I were alone together. No parents or anyone else in the house. That's what I dream of in the future. I watched on my phone as we got farther away from each other on the map and it made me even more sad. But that feeling of sadness, especially in that degree, confirms what I really already knew. I never want to be without him.