Snug

All good things come to an end. This saying couldn't be more true right now. I'm staring out the window as Josh, his parents and I are caravaning home from Montauk. The 4 days I spent here feels like 4 minutes. I was able to experience living with Josh, not just staying for a night. We shopped, shared fancy meals, cuddled, watched endless Netflix, and spent pretty much every moment together. It was just as magical as I thought it would be. I don't just love him like I have with my other boyfriends, but I can see myself married. I can see the life we'd have together and it's awesome. His parents are looking into buying a beach house out here and that would be my dream for Josh and I. Together I know we can be successful.
Our last day here (yesterday), was the best day I think. We did some shopping, had lunch with his parents, watched the sunset, and went back to the hotel. We had attempted to roll a couple of joints the days prior, but they didn't turn out so well. We finished about half a joint and decided to call it quits. We instead made drinks, mac n cheese, and had snacks while watching Netflix. We skipped a fancy dinner to just do us and it felt great. I felt like that's what our marriage would be like. Fancy dinners are nice, but I'd gladly take some mac n cheese and Netflix. We hung out and got tipsy and finished a series on Netflix before getting into bed. I bought us some dvd's, and we watched one and got frisky. It was so nice to have our own space. We didn't have to worry about someone walking in or coming home unexpectedly. We did what we wanted to do, when we wanted to do it. It was all up to us. The next we're going to have an extended sleepover like we just had would be next summer when his family comes out here again. It's usually for a week or two so it'll be longer than the short stay this time. Josh and I broke barriers that we hadn't crossed before in front of each other. And after living together and seeing each other in our rawest form, we still want to be with each other. This small vacation was a very important milestone for our relationship. His parents say they adore and love me, and I feel the same about them. This relationship is perfect in every way possible. I've found my perfect man and the perfect life. I still have struggles, as does everyone; but it'll be much easier to persevere because I know what my life is going to look like in 10 years.
Last night, I opened our back door around 1am and just stood there for a while. It was quiet, and all you heard were gentle splashes of water. The air was crisp and smelled like salt and fish. Some people would find that displeasing, but I grew up alongside a beach. Even the smell of low tide makes me smile. I stood there staring across into the marina as the boats were bobbing softly, and tried to take a mental picture. I noted the smells and sounds and sights. I turned around and Josh was in bed, telling me to join him. I took one last deep inhale and closed the door. I hope I never forget that mental picture.