I've taken a few days to seriously contemplate my options. I understand that I'm not out of the race yet, but it's a very small chance I'll be accepted into the nursing program. Why waste another entire semester on something that won't further my quest for a degree? I've been thinking about possibly transferring to a local senior college where my mom and her mom went. Fate works in mysterious ways I suppose. It should be an easy transfer, but I need to speak to my advisor. He'll have a better idea of how to do this and what I should do in the mean time. I think this is the right step. It makes sense in my head. I spoke to a few of my lab partners today and they agree with my idea. One of them also has a small likelihood of making the nursing program so she may just continue the path she was on before switching. She and I are in the same boat. Our families put a lot of pressure on us to do well and it just isn't working. She and I have both busted our asses and have stayed mediocre. She's a math whiz and it comes easy to her, which is why she's going that route. She enjoys it and it isn't something that drives her crazy with stress. It's the same situation with myself and psychology. It's always come easy and I genuinely do enjoy it. I just felt like maybe I needed more of a push or a challenge. I went for a challenge and found that maybe it wasn't the right fit. I'm sure some penguins out there look up at the sky and want to fly up into the air. But they can't. It isn't necessarily a bad thing; it's just the way things are. The toughest part is going to be my parents. I'm going to tell my mom that my advisor didn't think I'd make the program and suggested I focus my energy elsewhere, which I know he's going to say anyway. It scares me. I'm turning 21 and I still don't know in which direction my life is headed. Josh is the only certain thing I know. Every other aspect of my future is a toss up.
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