I saw Mike earlier today and it was very nice. I went over to his place in the morning, he made us both tea, then we crawled into his bed and snuggled for a bit. We ended up getting frisky and of course things happened. I'll spare the details, but our first real time together was very enjoyable. He did things I didn't know I would like, and it was overall a good experience. We ended up doing it twice then snuggling up for a bit longer. He was turned away from me at one point and I was running my nails down his back. He has birth marks on his back that resemble a constellation. I told him I'd love to connect them one day and see what it makes. Anyway, he set an alarm because he had someplace to be later and wanted to make sure he didn't lose track of time. We ended up falling asleep together and it was very wholesome. He pulled me close and held me there for a while. Eventually we separated to our own sides of the bed but were still touching. I like physical contact and it feels nice to sleep closely with your partner. I heard his alarm go off a couple times but he turned it off and we kept sleeping. I didn't check the time and assumed he'd start moving around when it was time to get up. We ended up over sleeping for an hour and a half only to wake up to a call from his mother saying she was outside. She knew he was having someone over and I believe suspected it was a girl, as I had run into her the last time I was over. Luckily she called ahead instead of walking in on the two of us passed out naked in his room. Apparently she's moving at hyper speed all of a sudden to move out and she should be gone in a matter of weeks from what he's said. I'm excited for her to be gone because then I could be over more often and not be limited by way of time or days I can and can't come over. He's already said he wants me to stay a night when she leaves and I'm very much looking forward to it. Besides the obvious hooking up it'll be nice to just chill and watch a movie and play video games and hang out. I can feel myself falling for him and I don't know whether that's a good thing or not. I'm not sure if he wants a serious thing but that's something I want to discuss with him once his mom is moved out for real. His job is more stabilized, he has a consistent schedule, and once his mom leaves it'll give him the freedom that I think he's missing right now. I want to voice my desires and interest in a real relationship, but I'm also afraid he won't feel the same way and it'll put a strain on what we currently have. However, I also know that I have to speak my mind and be direct with what I'm looking for. I'm not a teenager anymore and I can't allow myself to not speak up and say what I want to say. It'll be difficult and kinda scary, but I know the conversation has to happen. I'm hoping he wants what I want. We text every day and have semi-regular Discord calls/video game dates. I feel as though if this was just a friends-with-benefits thing he wouldn't be so insistent with Discord and wanting to have that time together during the week when we can't physically see each other. We're both busy people so sometimes we can go a couple weeks without seeing each other, but we try to have a least a few hours a week where we grab coffee and just talk for a bit. I'm hoping this Friday I can meet him in the city for a bit of a date night again since it sounds like he'll be getting out of work early, but we'll see. Overall, my love life is doing relatively well all things considered. He makes me happy and hopefully it'll continue in the direction I'm hoping it will.
Music drop time. Once again, I hope you guys are able to just sit back and enjoy the music. Music always helps me unwind and relax a bit, or sometimes motivate me in the morning to face my day with a positive attitude. Whatever you use music for, I hope these songs help you. I always post songs I personally enjoy so I'm always hoping someone else will enjoy them too.
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