Emotional Staycation

I've been noticing how my mood has changed recently. The last couple weeks have been so nice. It's like an emotional vacation - but I know it'll last forever as long as I'm with Josh. The last couple years I lived in secret away from my parents and friends and hid JP and I from everyone. I lived a double life between what I could show to the world and what I had to hide. I'm finally starting to feel like a normal college student. Classes stress me out and it sucks, but that's my only stress. I don't have to hide an entire relationship. I don't have that burden anymore. I'm loving every second I have with Josh. Talking to him is so easy and he always manages to make me feel better no matter the circumstances. Distance sucks but we're making the best of everything we have together. My therapist has even noticed a change in my demeanor. I'm almost hyper now when I see her. If you compare that with my appointments only a couple months ago and difference is incredible.
Walking to my therapy appointment yesterday was nice. I had some time to myself and just listened to music while wandering the neighborhood. I was early so I decided to stroll around a little. The sky was so clear and blue. The breeze was gentle and made my hair blow a little behind me. The sun was shining on my face. I felt so happy and peaceful. I haven't felt that way in a very long time. Being able to look up to the sky and thank God for bringing me to this place. I've gone through hell and so much more, and I never saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Now I'm out of that tunnel and running as far away from that place as humanly possible. After all of what I've been through, I find myself by Josh's side. I can't think of anyplace I'd rather be.