All the Way Up

I just slightly missed the date but yesterday would have been JP and I's 2yr anniversary. I look back on that entire relationship and wonder what I was doing and why. I'm a completely different person now than I was even 6 months ago. I still have many flaws and quirks, but they're all embraced and loved. Every bump and bruise is met with a teasing comment instead of suspicion and doubt. Josh was almost like a gentle spring rain for me. He carefully watered me and encouraged me to grow. He didn't press for any details of my past or where I had been. He waited and let me talk to him in my own time. The layers have been peeling away faster than I thought possible. I feel cleansed. I don't know if that makes sense to someone not in my own brain. I feel truly happy and satisfied with my life as a whole. Of course it has its moments of chaos and stress, but I feel like I can handle that better. My medication decreased with my downer so now I'm a little more happy and slightly manic. I'd rather be happy and a little manic every once in a while than be sad and depressed. I feel like I'm slowly becoming who I'll be for the rest of my life. I've learned from my years of being a psychology major that peoples' personalities and traits don't fully develop until the early to mid-20s. I never thought I'd change, let alone in such a short period - but who am I to complain. I like this me better. I still need to work on things but nobody is perfect. I'm just lucky I found the person I can be imperfect with for a very very long time.