Jack Herer

I should be sleeping right now, but for some reason I feel like writing. Plus, I promised myself I'd put effort into keeping this updated. Since the last posting, I had my first round of imaging done on my uterus. I got the results back today and I'm completely clean. The doctor said it was most likely nothing to worry about, and that it's too small to even be of concern. Still, my doctor recommended getting genetic testing to figure out what exactly I'm at risk for when it comes to diseases or cancers. While I have a vague idea, genetic testing can't hurt. Since I've last updated, there has also been another development with my health. During a follow-up exam, one of my doctors told me there is also a sizable nodule on my liver. I was ordered to get an MRI to see more clearly what mystery mass #2 really is. The MRI is scheduled for this Friday. I told Seth about it, and he wanted to come with me since I told him I'd most likely be alone. My mom doesn't view this entire health fiasco as being a big deal, and I'm sure she'd tell my dad to stop being dramatic if he insisted on going. I've gotten a couple of MRIs before, so I'm not nervous. But I'll never turn down a chance to hang out with Seth and have some company. MRIs take a long time, and the company is definitely appreciated.
Things have been going well overall with Seth too. We've been going out on small "dates" of sorts to lunches or dinners, and having our fun risky hookups in various places around campus. We cause a lot of trouble for just being 2 people. I feel as if I've found a companion in him. Not a boyfriend or anything, but kind of deeper on an emotional level. He and I have a lot of mutual thoughts and anxieties, and we both work to help each other. He always seems to do a majority of the helping, though.
As a small side note, I've also been depressed recently. I think a lot of it is the health issues, but it is also stress having to do with graduate school and school in general. It's been difficult for me to concentrate or do the things I need to do. I find it hard to sleep sometimes, or when I do, it's a mixture of very weird or very sad dreams. I'm not sure if that means something, but I'm attributing it to the wave of depression that's crashing on my head right now. I'll find a way out of my depression - I always do. It's just a matter of how long it'll take. In the mean time, I'll keep getting stoned every night before bed to forget my life for a while.