Beating Heart of Stone

I normally don't post things so close together, but I'm feeling like writing. I'm on the bus home right now from a "date" with Seth. After giving it some thought and having a discussion with him, we thought it best to start easing him into my mainstream life. That mainly includes telling my parents about him. I'm going to omit the sexual deviancy for the time being, and just clue them in on us seeing each other. He and I are still casual, and we intend to keep it that way. However, I do think it's becoming important to introduce him a little more into my world. He's met one of my close friends already, and he's involved in my life very heavily from an emotional standpoint. But as the semester is slowly drawing to a close, I want to make it clear to my parents that I have someone I will be spending time with once school is over. He and I have talked about staying in a nice hotel for a long weekend or possibly doing a small roadtrip to celebrate the both of us finally graduating.
Seth and I grabbed dinner at a Vietnamese hole in the wall place around where we go to college, and it was phenomenal. We spent about 2 hours just talking and eating and laughing. We also touched on deeper topics like family and our respective futures. He described my personality and said I was "blunt almost to the point of hostility", and that I could very easily come off as being unnecessarily harsh. We think along similar lines, and we're both very direct and honest. I was reflecting on where I was in my life 3 years ago, and it doesn't feel real. My life feels like a movie at times because although my past is behind me, it still nips at my heels from time to time. Seth knows about where I've come from and what I've been through. He and I are both cynical assholes who love criticizing others while watching the fucked up world pass us by as we stuff our faces with cheap Vietnamese food. Seth tells me often that I am a wonderful person, and I hope that one day I'll believe him. If only I wasn't such a cynic.