Hesitant Hug

I've been busy, so blogging hasn't been at the forefront of my mind. However, the past few days have been interesting to say the least.
On Tuesday, I left for Kyle's house. I stopped by work to pick up some bagels for the crew. JP was working, so I gave him a little hug, got my bagels, and left to catch my bus. JP texted me and was sort of put off by the fact I was hesitant in hugging him. I was only hesitant because his apron was dirty, and I wanted to remain clean. He still didn't seem to like the way I acted towards him and pushed me away a little saying that what I was saying and what I was doing were two different things. I really like JP, and I think he's such a cool person. I would never lead him on then treat him like shit. Anyway, I got to Kyle's house and we all gathered. We ate and set the game up. We played for a couple hours then we had to run to the store (I got my period and lacked tampons). While we were there, our friend Rich wanted to buy a beer. He offered to get me a 4loko. Who could refuse an offer like that? So I got my tampons, and Rich got the alcohol. We all went back to playing the game then took a break for food. Rich and I talked and laughed and questioned why we didn't hang out more often. He's such a chill guy and we get along perfectly. Eventually, we got back and ended the game for the night. Now it was time to drink. Rich opened his beer, and I opened my 4loko. I drank a little, then Rich and I went on a beer run. He got two more beers and we headed back. It was only Rich, Liam and I who drank. Liam is Kyle's boyfriend's younger brother who is 15. We sat around drinking while Kyle and his boyfriend played a game on their laptops. Rich, Liam and I all bonded and laughed and had fun. I don't remember much after a certain period. I woke up the next morning next to Rich sleeping on the futon next to me. Nothing happened, we just happened to crash on the same couch. I texted JP and told him I just woke up next to a guy after a night of drinking (I was looking for some feedback on this scenario). I got no response from JP. The trio (especially me) was hungover and still recovering from drinking. We all eventually were awake enough to go get Subway. Rich bought me lunch in exchange for my paying for his beers the previous night. We hung out for a little while longer then I headed home. I still had no response from JP, so I thought he must have still been a little put off but my hesitant hug. I arrived home in time for dinner. I ate, showered, then passed out.
The next day I was working a 6-2 shift. I was exhausted, but the time went fast. My manager said I could leave early at 11. I was so thrilled. I texted JP and asked if he wanted to meet up for lunch. No response. I left work around 12 after helping clean up a little. Why was JP mad at me? I apologized and explained why I was hesitant. Rawr.
The next day was uneventful, then I worked today. I walked in and saw JP in the back. I poked him to see his reaction. He smiled and asked how I was. I jokingly said he would know if he ever texted me back. Apparently, JP accidentally dropped his phone out of a car window while on the highway. Wow. I told him how I thought he was mad at me and he said I was being ridiculous. I was so relieved. I continued on to work, but someone was missing. Where was Kevin? He was supposed to work a 7-4 shift (upon his request) but never showed up. He had called out of work yesterday saying that he had sprained his ankle and couldn't walk. It would be understandable if he couldn't work today, but he insisted on coming in, and then didn't let anyone know he wasn't coming. I love Kevin to death, but this is kinda weird. It's not really like him to just bail on us and not say why. I texted him, but still haven't gotten a response. Ray and I closed up the shoppe along with JP. JP's ex-wife and a couple of his kids came by during work. He had a little one who I believe was named Gia, and one that looked around 11 or so. Gia was so adorable, and JP's face was lit up when he saw her. He carried her behind the counter and gave her a plain bagel. It barely fit in her tiny mouth. JP just stroked her head and talked to her. I've never seen him be like that before. I guess when you have kids, you have a certain soft spot for them. I loved Gia, and hated to watch her leave. I told JP he had adorable kids, and he jokingly said maybe he'd give me some of my own. We closed the shoppe, and I told Ray he could leave. I was gonna hang out with JP for a bit. JP was still working in the back kneading the dough and making the bagel shapes. We just talked about my relationship with Bambi, what happened when I woke up next to Rich, and just life in general. I love how he listens to me and always gives me great advice. He looks into my eyes and is always genuine. We talked for about 45mins, then I had to go. It was so sweet just talking to him face to face without being interrupted by work. Tomorrow I'm doing a 6-1 shift. JP is working, so he'll be there at 6am to greet me with a smile and ask me how I'm doing. Working with JP is something I'm looking forward to now more than ever. Kevin was supposed to work tomorrow, but we'll see what happens. At very least, I'll have JP.