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The day after Kevin and I hung out, Bambi and I had a date. We went to catch a movie, and it was fairly awkward and silent walking to the theater. We saw 22 Jump Street. It was funny, and Bambi was laughing at almost everything. When the movie ended, we went to a local sushi place. It was cheap and small. Not exactly a romantic dinner, but I'll take it. We ate and discussed some school and work related things. He asked me what I would do if he decided to join the circus and juggle. I would leave him. Juggling and being in the circus gets you no where in life, and you can't provide for a family that way. We got into a bit of an argument over that because he says that it isn't fair that I would leave him if he did that. Bambi doesn't approve of me going into the Air Force, or being a cop, but he said he wouldn't leave me if I decided to do those careers. However, those are extremely different. With each of the career paths, the pay is decent (although NYPD is much more than Air Force), the benefits are great, and you can work your way up the ranks for more money and status. Bambi refused to see the difference and kept being difficult. As we walked to the train station, we saw these 2 guys get into an argument. One of them looked like he was trying to physically intimidate the other man. I kept it moving, but Bambi insisted on staying and trying to help if the guy needed it. I took his hand and dragged Bambi away. This is New York City. That fight isn't ours to fight. Let the two bimbos figure it out, and let's keep going. Bambi said I was being mean and selfish by walking away. I was simply just minding my business. We got to the train station and we parted. We shared and hug and a kiss. For some reason, I don't feel the spark that I used to feel when I kiss him. When I kiss him now, it's just meh. It isn't exciting or sexy or cute. I'm indifferent.
Today I had work. I walked in and found Kevin there. He wasn't on the schedule, so this caught me off guard. Apparently Jena had to leave early, so they called in Kevin to close up shop. That meant Kevin and I were closing with JP. My boss and manager left early, so Kevin and I got cleaning done quick and early. I had some time to talk to JP. He wouldn't answer me about what Kevin said to him. I want to know for sure if Kevin likes me or not. JP urged me to talk to Kevin myself and confront it. I told JP that I do like Kevin, and that we spent a lot of time together on Wednesday. He said it sounded like a date to him. We broke the conversation once Kevin reappeared from downstairs. About an hour or so later, I saw JP and Kevin talking in the back. I couldn't hear what they were saying, which is odd considering JP is usually a loud person. As I glanced back at them, I got a strange look from JP. It was sort of like he was watching to see if I were going to come back to them and see what was up. Whatever they were talking about, they didn't want me hearing. I'm guessing the conversation was about me. Toward the end of our shifts, it got a little laid back. Kevin was in front doing something, and I was in the back with JP. We starting discussing Kevin and what he thought about it. JP thinks I should just go for it. I told him I had a boyfriend, but he said he knows I'm not happy (I've told him about some of the fights Bambi and I have had). JP has 6 kids and an ex wife. He said he still loves her, but he isn't IN love with her. He told me that if I'm happy, there is no point in continuing my relationship with Bambi. We went back and forth and discussed why I should/shouldn't/can/can't leave him. It almost turned into a therapy session. I forgot I was at work until Kevin needed me to do something. JP said we would be continuing our talk another time. I'm closing with JP and Kevin tomorrow as well. I have a feeling the shift will be a little busier than today, but JP and I will continue our conversation. I want to figure this out. This is a very strange situation and I don't know what to do.