Calcaneus

As the days pass, I realize how quickly the semester is going. Some things are familiar to me, and some are not. However I have something this semester that I didn't have last time. I have someone who helps me and let's me study and focus on what I need to do. Josh has been such a major help in everything I've accomplished this semester. I just took my second lab test today, and I felt more confident than I ever had before. I knew a solid 85%, then made educated guesses on the rest. I've never been able to look anatomy and physiology in the eyes and take it on like that. I was beyond nervous and knew that if this test didn't go well, I'd have a problem. But I walked in, took my answer sheet, then went to each station confident and proud of what I knew. As I covertly glanced at other people's papers, I saw they left almost half of them blank. That boosted my confidence even more. I was able to spell things correctly, accurately distinguish different bones, and was even able to label things I couldn't do last year. I had a dream last night before the test that I got my grades back and I did well, and I was accepted into the official practical nursing program. I was so happy, but so sad to wake up and see I wasn't there yet. But I know that as long as I keep doing what I'm doing, I should be OK.
Last semester fucked me up in more ways than one, but it also helped me. It helped me to find myself emotionally, begin to heal, and to start cultivating a better relationship with my parents. I've become a better person. I feel as if right now, I am who I was always meant to be. I feel liberated in every way possible. I finally have control over my own life, and it feels amazing. I found someone who is not only my significant other, but also one of my best friends. I count my blessings every day when I text Josh and reflect on our relationship. We're coming up on our first Christmas together, and I can't wait. I've already finished a majority of the shopping for him, and I even have ideas for his birthday. We're a power couple, and I know it. I remember seeing him online for the first time and wondering why he wasn't taken already. Josh was perfect, and he still is.
Experiencing a real relationship like this makes me wonder what I ever saw in JP. But there is one thing I will always remember him saying, because it's true. He would tell me that he was just a stepping stone, and I'd move on. I didn't think it was true, and I don't think he wanted to believe it. But JP was actually right. I've advanced miles from where I was with him. And he's still face down in the dirt - in the same place he's always been, and always will be. Some people are made for greatness, while others are just made to exist. I know exactly which one I am.