Lullaby

Change is never welcome. People always talk about wanting to change things, or how others should change. Sometimes people actually initiate their change, but then it isn't believed because it is the other person who cannot accept the change. I like things to stay the same. Change scares me to death, and I don't like it. However, sometimes certain people make you want to actually change. Sometimes life comes to a head, and change is all you have left to do. Change is hard, and change is scary. Change is also necessary for evolution and growth.
Today at work, I kept to myself per usual. After all of the customers were gone, we began cleaning, folding, hanging, and organizing. I worked alone, then was joined by a girl, then a guy. The girl was quiet, I'm not sure of what her name was. The guy's name was Kelvin. He asked me a bit about myself like where I went to school and what job I had prior to Old Navy. We laughed and had fun while cleaning up clearance (not an easy or enjoyable task). We were then joined by the other employees to finish up quicker. Everyone was laughing and sharing stories. I kept to myself because the larger crowd sort of freaked me out, but I paid close attention to each conversation going on. Kelvin is looking for a job somewhere else, Mary decreased her hours, we had a couple new associates start today, one of the managers is leaving, and other small gossip. I was (and still am) exhausted. Emotionally and mentally, I'm a wreck. I don't know what tomorrow brings, but hopefully it brings something positive. Maybe I'll go to church like I planned, or maybe I'll sleep and dream of better times. I've been thinking about it, and I really think I want to switch my major. I know I'm a junior now, and it's kind of late, but it could still happen. I want to switch from psychology to nursing. JP said I'd be a good nurse, and I can see it too. The future is what we make it, I just have to keep that in mind.