All Apologies

I've been a bit busy lately. I worked Friday, picked up and extra shift on Saturday, then worked the early shift today. Quite the busy bee. Every shift was relatively easy. Today was annoying because Bob was up my ass about everything. LD (my coworker who sometimes works early shifts with Bob and I) actually told my boss that Bob and I should never work together. Bob just doesn't like me. I work hard, I really do. I get along with everyone but him. To be honest, Bob's opinion means a lot to me. I want his approval, but I know I'll never get it. Why does he hate me? I don't get it.
Bambi has been kind of strange lately. Quiet and distant. He says he misses me. I miss him too. We're going out tomorrow to see Monsters University. It should be fun. I'm hoping that he cheers up when I see him. His smiling face is so infectious and cute. He has muscles, chest and facial hair, and a big body structure. Pair that with his chubby cheeks, blue eyes and adorable laugh and you got the perfect mix of cute and sexy. I feel more in love with him now than ever. Leo texted me the other night. He was apologetic and felt bad for calling my house and causing trouble with my mom. I feel so distant with him. Maybe I'm actually trying to move on. I don't know. I still love him and care about him. I hate how I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I hate myself for playing the fence. Not deciding. I want everyone to be happy. Including me. Am I selfish?