A Gift

So I went to work today. 10-4. It was sooooo slow. Tropical Storm Andrea really affected business. Leo texted me during the day. He said he wanted to meet after I got out of work. I agreed and we met up at a local Dunkin Donuts. He bought a sammich and we talked. No serious topics. Just laughing and hanging out. I needed to get home, so we went and waited for the bus. He took the bus with me even though his house was in the opposite direction. We continued talking and having fun. It was POURING rain. We had to walk about 5 or 6 blocks to my house from where the bus left us. We walked in the rain and said how soaked our shoes were. We parted ways on the corner of my block. I hugged him and wished him a happy birthday. Today is his 17th birthday. We didn't want to leave eachother. We were about to seperate when something strange happened. Leo leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back. It was a semi-long kiss. In the rain. With my hair down. Romantic. Sweet. It was my birthday gift to him. I could have easily avoided the kiss, but I didn't. I don't think I regret it. But I feel bad about it. I feel very guilty. I shouldn't have cheated. Bambi is my boyfriend. Practically my fiancé. Its kinda bothering me that I kissed Leo. However. It felt good. It felt so right. I don't know. I hate this. I want to love Bambi with everything I have. No reservations. I also want to love Leo with everything I have too. Leo needs love and acceptance. I want to give that gift to him. I'm not a cheater. I didn't cheat. I will never cheat. I gave Leo a gift. A birthday gift. It was a gift. Just a gift.