Few Days Recap

Alrighty. Where to begin? Well, I disappeared for a bit, and I apologize. Scout, my german shepard, thought it would be hilarious to step on my phone and crack the screen. I haven't been able to get a replacement yet. I decided to order a phone off Amazon.com to conserve money. I only had about $100 to work with. I got a refurbished HTC Thunderbolt. It won't be here till the 5th (earliest). In the mean time, I'm pretty much cut off from everyone. I used to email Leo every day, every chance I got. Now I've only been able to send him two emails since my phone broke 3 days ago. I would usually be texting Bambi constantly, but now only talk to him on Xbox Live every night at 11 for a couple hours. I feel so alone. Granted, I have my family. But family gets annoying sometimes, you know?
I had the funeral on Friday for Kyle's father. We all gathered together and talked. Kyle seemed okay. He was sad looking, but strong. I gave him a big hug and told him to let me know if he needed anything. I kissed his mother on the cheek and told her I was sorry for her loss. Mr. D was in a casket in the front of the room. There was a Mets jersey with his last name on it hanging by the wall. He was a huge Mets fan. There was also a Jets jersey. It made me smile to see his sports stuff there. There were also pictures all over the place.
The pictures were of him and his family, even some childhood photos. I found a photo with me in it. It was taken at an aquarium to which his family had taken me. Kyle and I were in 7th or 8th grade when the picture was taken. My hair was still short, and his hair was long and curly. Now he has short hair and I have long hair. I showed him the photo and we thought of the memories we made that day. It was nice to see Kyle relaxed and smiling. Kyle told me that I could have the picture. I smiled and knew exactly what I was going to do with it. I have a picture on my wall by the door in my room of he and I from the musical. There was a scene in the musical where we would yell at each other and get angry. During a rehearsal one day, we got bored. We were saying our lines and pretending to fist fight. One of the directors took a picture and gave it to me. Every time I look at it, I smile. It reminds me of the fun times he and I have had over the years. Now I have the aquarium picture right beneath the musical picture. The pictures show how much we both have grown and bonded. Kyle means so much to me. He's like my brother. I know that losing his father is a very difficult situation, but I want him to know that I'm here for him.
Saturday was a little more cheery than Friday. I met up with Bambi at the mall for lunch. We went to Applebees (our favorite place to eat) and talked. We laughed and smiled and fell even more in love. I hadn't seen him for over a week so I missed him. Being away from him for so long reminds me how thankful I am to have him. It's times like those where I sort of thank the beings above for Leo going to camp. I can focus more on Bambi and our relationship. After lunch, we skateboarded around the area and had fun. I'm getting better thanks to his instruction. It soon started to get too hot to be outside. We agreed to head to the bus stop and go to his house. We got home and I picked out a movie for us to watch. Cloverfield. I love that movie, so I figured I would show him. He said it was decent. After the movie, he and I watched a TV show I had never heard of before. The Weekenders. We watched about 3 hours of that then he showed me some CreepyPasta Youtube videos. Those are so freaky. We ate raw cookie dough then went outside to skate. My mom came and then spoke to Bambi's mom for a good hour. Then, I headed home and did...well...nothing. My mom and I got into an argument about my laptop. I'm supposed to be ordering a Macbook Air but my mother insists she needs to talk to my college savings people. Yet, she refuses to actually make a call and do something about it. Once I get the Macbook, I'll also be getting an iPod 5th gen for my graduation gift. I want to get the ball rolling so I can get my shit. Reading my entry, I feel like a spoiled brat complaining about not getting what she wants. Meh. I have no phone, no computer, and no way to talk to people. Good golly gee. I'm starting to go crazy.
Today I had work. Only 12-4. It was easy, just a lot of washing and what not. Chris came to visit the shop. He looked a lot darker and kinda skinnier than he used to be. I haven't seen him in about 2 months. I missed him at first but then realized I didn't care. I would text him, and he would text for maybe 10mins then disappear or say he had to go. I forgot him and moved forward. Seeing him was weird. He was cute, but still loud and annoying. I was sarcastic and somewhat mean to him. I was leaning against the wall at one point with Chris standing across from me and Paulie a few feet away. I looked at the case and saw Chris' reflection. I caught him checking me out. He slowly looked at me top to bottom and had a smile on his face while doing so. I made me feel attractive, I'm not going to lie. Chris soon left and we went about our day. I found out that I'm working an early shift on Wednesday. 6-12. I'm going to be working with Bob. I really hope he isn't in a bad mood. I just want to be in and out. No problems. I'm not in the mood for problems right now.
And then, in the back of my head, I'm thinking about Leo. I'm wondering how camp is going, and if he is having fun. I sent him something in the mail back on Thursday. I was 24 small and colorful cards. Each card has a little factoid, lyric or quote. It sounds silly, I know. My logic behind the cards was that whenever he's bored or sad or whatever, he can look at a card and maybe feel a bit better. I don't know if they will actually serve their purpose, but it's worth a shot. I'll be making more and sending them in small increments to avoid an annoyingly large postage fee. I hope he likes them. I hope he appreciates them. I hope these don't send the wrong message. I find myself not thinking about him as much as I used to. Maybe this is a good thing. I hate this love triangle thing. Once college starts, it's a new beginning. A clean slate. But. I'm not sure if I want my slate to be cleansed of Leo.