Relaxing?

Where do I begin? I slept late today. Till around 10am. I was up late on the phone with Leo. I expressed some of my discontent about our meeting during the day. I called Leo when I woke up. He was in a Regents exam. He called me when he was done. He wanted to come over but I said no. I needed some time solo. He understood. We talked for over 3hrs. I hung up the phone and cleaned. Then, I made homemade peanutbutter cups and went on xbox. I played some Halo to release my tensions. Bambi and I talked while I played. He said our friend Megan is having a party on Friday. Alcohol will be provided. This is just what I need. Time to relax and let loose. I drink, yea. I have my own Jack Daniels and Jägermeister in my room hidden in a drawer. I haven't drank in a while. It should be nice to hang out and laugh.
After xbox, I showered. A nice, long, hot shower. It was so relaxing. I made some more peanutbutter cups and then turned on the tv. It's been such a lazy day.
Remember Jojoe? He stopped speaking to me a little while ago. He wanted space. He said I took advantage of him. He was there to hold my hand when times got rough, but I wasn't there for him. It's not true. I was here for him, he just never showed me he needed it.  I didn't help because I didn't know. I feel like shit. I let him down. I'm so depressed. He's leaving me. Why? Because I neglected him. I took advantage of him. That's all I ever seem to do. Be selfish.