Choices

Leo contacted me. He said he wished to talk. He couldn't make up his mind. He didn't know what to do. Frankly, neither did I. He always says he wants to stop talking, but this time it was different. I had had enough. I just shut off any emotion I had towards him. Whether it was love or hate, it didn't matter. I stopped caring. Every time he wanted to seperate, I got hurt. Little by little. I felt abandoned. My whole life I've dealt with losing people; whether it be my grandparents dying or my friends leaving. I love Leo. But having him constantly leaving and returning has worn on me. This time, I've had enough. I turned off emotion. I love him, but I feel emotionally drained. I've been passive all day. At work, I just did my job and left. Nothing more. I've been trying to forget Leo. I went to a minor league baseball game with my family, Bambi and his brother. We hung out and had fun. It was nice. For a while, I forgot Leo. Then I checked my phone. I had a text and 3 emails from him. He said he wanted to stay with me and keep talking to me. I love him. I don't want to let him go. But I feel different. Numb. Is this something I want? Is this something I need?